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dahil eto ang pinakamalungkot na anniversary na meron sa buhay ko ngayon..

dahil ngayon lang naman yung araw na yun. at buong linggo ako excited makita ka.. pero meron talagang mga bagay na wala tayong control. at ngayon hindi ko ma-control ang pag buo ng mga luha saking mga mata..

salamat. sana happy ang anniversary na to. pero hindi.

hndi tayo nag-ce-celebrate ng monthly thing dahil pareho nating nakikita yun as something na parang hanggang month lang ang nafoforesee sa relationship..pero etong araw na to..anniversary natin.. haha~ minsan lang sa isang taon.. minsan lang..

hay.

ako ang pinakamahalagang tao sayo pero hndi ko alam bakit parang lagi mo akong tinataboy kapag may problema ka..

ayoko na magsalita. ang sakit na ng mga mata ko.

:(

i didn’t get to talk to him. idk.. if he’s still pissed. or what. or.. idk. just. gah. 

wasted my money on things i bought impulsively..

and to top this all, some bitch ruining my night more.

this is just urg.

..that this feeling is way above the scale. and that finding the right words seems harder than before. that a simple “i love you” can’t contain the essence of this feeling. for what it’s worth, you shower me with so much love, so much joy, so much of all the positive vibes. you linger in my head every moment. times we shared seems very natural, very true, very real. i want to hold you in my arms again. i want you to kiss me goodnight again. to be with you for another day. to feel your warmth on to my own. romantically, just to be with you..nothing more matters.